The kids have started school, I thought that after the first day of balling my eyes out that my baby is now in Kindergarten would be much easier, it is NOT! I walked them all to school today and for "security reasons" I was not aloud to walk her behind the fence :( I walked along the fence with both Candice and Austin, After Austin gave me his kiss and hug he went off to play with his friends, I continued to wait until the bell rand, and I waved to Candice from the other side of the fence with tears rolling down my face, So that she could not tell I was tearing up I refused to wipe my face. I do not want her to worry about me while in school. She is growing so fast. She is just a little flower, so beautiful and warm. My neighbor guy walked up behind me and laughed as I looked at him, not only crying but sweating because it was so HOT! He said it will only get easier.... 4 days of school already and I am still a mess over it.
Friday my good friend invited Ethan, Sam and I (since we do not have pre school we decided those are going to be "our" days) so we can take our minds off the kids being in school, and for a small play date. She taught me how to make necklaces. Candice is in "Girl Heaven" and wanted me to make her TONS of necklaces this weekend. But that did not happen...!
I can not believe I am going to be 29 tomorrow.... I have lived a happy 29 years, as the road curves and straightens back out, I would not change a thing about my curvy life. In the past year I have grown a lot and I have learned from my mistakes. I have realized that without knowing it that I have lived by the motto of: "I'd rather not deal with it, and get rid of it before it becomes a problem."
And since I have noticed, and everyone refers to me as "A LEO" I finally took the time to follow my sign, and a LEO I am... So as I have taken a step back and found this:
My new motto:
And since I have found this wonderful saying, I have slowly noticed a difference in myself.
A better more positive and understanding ME... What a BEAUTIFUL feeling.
Apologise have been accepted with out being said. I have moved on from a lot of grudge holding, and negative thoughts.
I am just so happy that I have realized and can change myself to a better ME before I turn 30!!
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